December 15, 2006
i have to admit that, despite the beautiful moments that i am lucky enough to have with these babies on a daily basis, i'm kind of lonely. jeremy works ALL THE TIME. seriously. like 10 or 11 hours a day, six days a week. and we have awesome friends who check on me all the time, bring me lunch, or just stop by to say hello. but i'm still kind of lonely sometimes. maybe it's just the usual holiday funk, maybe it's hormones, or maybe it's the fact that i keep missing out on awesome parties and art shows and concerts. i know it seems ridiculous to care about parties when i have newborns to take care of, but i feel so isolated in baby land sometimes that i can't help but be jealous.
i know we did the right thing by buying this house and "building equity" but i also miss living in the heart of the neighborhood, where you sit on your front porch and watch your friends ride by.... the whole "it takes a village" mentality. so, instead of staying home and feeling sorry for ourselves, me and these babies hit the road most days. it's the only thing that keeps me going when i'm about to scream because they're both crying at the same time, or i haven't slept, or the dogs are driving me nuts....
don't get me wrong, i love these babies. i'm just adjusting to this whole motherhood thing.
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